Man, where do I start? To be honest, I haven’t been feeling together lately. I don’t know whats really wrong with me. I’m super behind in my projects for my classes coming to the closing weeks of school and still don’t feel motivated to do them. Oh, and I noticed, I really need to stop meeting people when I’ve been drinking. Hahaha, turns out I know more people that I’m actually aware of. I literally couldn’t remember someone I met before for the life of me, this happens to me A LOT. If YOU happen to read this, my bad.. Hahahaha. I have work today, but I dont’ feel like going and I’m actually thinking about calling off. Oh yeah! I really really want to see “UP”! I heard that movie is super cute and want to really see it now. All I need now is to find a date..
On another note.. This picture describes what I feel like doing
Alright, this is going to be a semi-serious blog. Yesterday was the worst feeling I could possibly feel in my entire life. I thought I lost my Dad yesterday. I got a phone call telling me minimal details that my dad needed to be taken to the hospital via ambulance because he collapsed. Other than that I wasn’t given anymore information. I dropped everything at school and drove back as fast as I could to the hospital, praying the whole way. I get there and I see my dad in the bed and my mom really emotional, I’m thinking heart attack or stroke, but thank god it was only him getting sick because he has kidney stones. I felt really bad for my mom, cause she literally said that she thought she lost my dad. I was seriously emotional for like 20 min even though he was okay and it wasn’t anything serious. The nurse was stupid and said “why are you crying? its nothing serious.. “, in which I replied ” Its not that stupid.. I thought I lost my dad today”. I don’t know.. I’ve had so much happen to me already in my life, I couldn’t lose either one of my parents. I wouldn’t know what to do, and to be honest.. I don’t think I’m strong enough to handle another big blow in my life. To end this, I LOVE my dad with everything and anything I have, as I should. Yeah, he can be embarrassing and talks about nothing, but he cracks himself up and cracks me up at the same time. I hope I’m like him when I get older older.. hahaha.. you know what I mean. Just not as weird maybe? Hahaha
Dang.. I thought I blog a lot! This tumblr thing gets kind of overwhelming with all these post’s. I don’t know how people can follow like 20 + people on this thing. I have a hard time keeping up with only 5.. Yeah.. 5.. I know.. I’m so untumb-popular. I think my tumblrarity or whatever its called is at 3.. ehhhh.. Songs I heard on the way to the beach. Beach was awesome and I got a little sunburned, but fuck it. Well worth it!
I kinda want to keep this short, but it always ends up not being “short”. Pretty much waiting for the Laker game to start and begin my hating. Thinking about what I’m going to do tonight. APAC wants to come over again and just do random shit; which I’m down for, but for some reason, I kinda don’t want to do anything.. In the mean time i spent most of day cleaning the apt and thinking about everything thats going on right now. Of course, while browsing my music. These are a few that I liked today..
This is going to be a random music blog. I don’t care because, these are the songs that I heard on my phone randomly while i was hanging out in the library. Yeah, I forgot my ipod in PJ’s car. I haven’t updated my phones music since I bought it 2 years ago or something like that. Oh yeah.. I now know of the best/cheapest teriyaki place near school! $3.50 for a chicken bowl!? I KNOW RIGHT? its unheard of..
"you can be my philosopher. If I can ride your dinosaur" - So how about it?
Alright, lets start off by saying that, I don’t think that 2009 likes me very much. I started the year off in bad shape and it just seems that every month, 2009 has something negative to offer me. I got a phone call this morning from my brother and of course.. bad news AGAIN. I woke up knowing that something was wrong. Got 4 hours of sleep, but went back home for support. It’s really hard right now for me. I’m just going to say that I still have hope for the rest of this year. I just need to wait and see if it gets brighter on the other side. Songs that got me today. Oh.. I’m not emo.. I’m just tired. I’m allowed at least one a month.
A little good news out of today.. Happy Birthday to my BIG brother! Hhahaha.. I joked to him about being 40 in 5 years, and he replied, “and? You’ll be 30” = ( . That shit scared me! AND a Happy Birthday to KEVO aka Nurse Fuck.. SUSHI TONIGHT!
Back in P-town. Spent the weekend with the fam. Lake on saturday.. roasted. Crazy fun and awkward too.. I would really like to leave the awkward details out. Saturday night.. OMG.. I had so much fun. Kevin.. I effin LOVE you! I wouldn’t have wanted to be anywhere else. Watched the Lakers smash the Rockets.. yeah yeah whaeva! I liked watching it cause i spent time with Dom and my bro and ate taco/drank beers. Had work.. felt sick.. now i’m in my apt. Got another display for the apt.. or house come next month. = ( Some stuff I was listening to all weekend.
Im kinda getting lazy posting music on here, but I’m going to pick it back up.. try. Getting ready to spend the day with FAM and head to the Bar/club tonight for nurse fuck kevins bday. I haven’t really spent much time in my home town.. Pomona people keep me busy out here. I still miss my old friends though.. I’m going to try to get everyone to go out tonight.
I’m still mixin it up these days.. electro/rock/hardcore/R&B etc etc etc… Here are a few that I’m diggin right now.
Sooo… Turns out I have 4 A’s coming into the 8th week of school, only 2 more weeks to go! As for the 5th class.. UGH.. I have a D. I hate hate hate accounting with a passion! Need to work harder in that class. Alright for the rest of my day.. worked, went to class, had dinner/lunch with APAC (group of friends) and played some 3v3 basketball. If you didn’t know.. I have to move out from my apt = (, but turns out APAC has an open room for me to rent! Super dope! I know thats going to be a fun place to live. That sums up my day.. Now for some NEW stuff I’ve been listening too. I almost don’t want to share.. Its one of those “proud to have” songs.. eff it!
Well, first off, GOOD MORNING! Woke up this morning to a nightmare where I got shot in the head over road rage. It was weird, in my dream; when I got shot in the head, it was like a glitch, but i was still alive. It’s really hard to explain, but I woke up kinda scared. I don’t know.. typical nightmare, been having a lot lately. It woke me up early to go over a study guide that me and a group member split. OMG, his is super not organized, well, it is, but damn! He made it super confusing! I should have just done it all myself. I’m reading his and not retaining anything.. Oh well, lesson learned. I should be reading, but when i’m not really retaining anything.. its I dont know.. discouraging.
For some reason people think I’m this dude or I look like him (frontman for A Day To Remember). Some guy thought I was him at DTF and wouldn’t stop following me and last night someone told me that I looked like him too.. Go figure?
Yesterday.. Best day with my family and at the end I expressed to my mom how much she means to me. Pretty much, my mom is my everything (yes, I cried). My little niece is becoming a new mother next month.. omg.. anyways, I will do anything and everything for her and that baby. Gave her my wishes yesterday and told her how much she meant to be too (cried again). I also helped pick/settle the name of the baby.. sorta. Unfortunately, we ended up with “Melanie”; which in her defense is a pretty name, but it also happens to be my ex’s name. I could care less though to be honest. She could call that baby “Feets” and I would still love that baby like no other.
Alright, that was the good portion of the day, and I had to fuck it all up later. I made a really stupid joke that wasn’t funny at all. Am I still a good friend? Yes. Did I fuck up last night? Yes. To you, I am really really sorry. It was a stupid joke and I feel bad for it. I killed my own night because of it. We’ll see where this goes. Hopefully they can forgive me soon.. I hate feeling bad.. who doesn’t?
P.S. “You’re a shitty friend” really needs to be dropped from everyones vocab. That shit is getting tossed around too much!
Alright back to the important.. to every mom out there…
I’m in Pomona right now, only because I have work in the morning. I will be going back home tomorrow after work. Hahahaha.. I really needed this trip home and tomorrow is going to be that much better. I feel soo good right now. AND now a much needed gathering tonight in L.A.. Life is good right now. Alright.. This blog entry is dedicated to the track list that me and my nephew were rocking out to.
I don’t really feel all together right now. I miss my family. I haven’t really seen them much in the past 2 weeks. I need to see my mom.. I’m going to take a break from blogging. I’ll probably get back to it on sunday. I just really need to be home right now. Besides, I have my little nieces baby shower to be at on saturday.. I REALLY REALLY REALLY can’t wait for that.. I’m going to spend ALL day with my family.. Alright, I’m done.